You probably remember your own transition from elementary school to middle school. If it was anything like mine, it likely isn't your favorite memory. This huge change is a BIG DEAL for every kid! It involves leaving the comfort of a place you've been for 7 years, and going somewhere new. You have to change classrooms for each class. Who will you sit with at lunch? You need to remember where your locker is...and don't forget the combination! The teachers expect so much more from you. Plus, your body is totally out of whack! UGH!!! This short list makes me want to hug a middle-schooler. Needless to say, I definitely wouldn't want to revisit the beginning of 7th grade, and I'd be willing to bet most adults would agree with me.
For Joshua, this transition has been less like going to a different school and more like moving to another planet. Until this year, he had been in what Jefferson County calls an SSN2 lab. Basically, it was a wonderful place where he was in an enclosed classroom for most of his day. There were very few kids in his class in comparison to a typical classroom. He had the same wonderful teacher for all the years he was there. He also had most all the same classmates. They became his friends, his team, his tribe. School was a safe, happy, comfortable place and Joshua LOVED being there. However, this year he was placed in a school that did not have a center program like the one he had become so accustomed to. The reason for this is a little lengthy, but long story short, the district places a LOT of emphasis on a child's IQ score when they are evaluating placement options. Here's the kicker with Joshua. Part of his IQ is fairly high. However, other parts are beyond low. It's very hard to know how to interpret his scores. Because of this, on paper, Joshua looks like he might be able to function on a much higher level than he actually is able. SO...blah, blah, blah...legalese, evaluations...blah, blah...he got placed into a mainstream school setting. Sorry, I know that got a little dry and lengthy. Let's just say that it hasn't gone well...AT ALL!!! We are now in the process of trying to convince the district that he needs a center program. It's a battle. I'm hoping for the best, but preparing for the worst. I'll keep you posted as I know more.
On top of all of the typical 7th grade stuff, he has had to deal with big issues like not being able to read or write. His working memory is basically non existent, so he has no idea where he's supposed to go from period to period. He has poor dexterity, so he can't open a combination lock (even if he could remember the combo). Add to that his sensory processing problems. For him, EVERYTHING is much louder than for other people. Lights are too bright. Colors are too vibrant. Smells are more pungent. Basically, all of his senses are on high alert and his brain isn't wired to process all of that information in a way that he can understand or tolerate. When Joshua gets overstimulated, he has seizures, vomits, has accidents, cries and shuts down. And now we've added something new to his coping mechanisms. Let me tell you a little story...
A few days into the school year, I went in to wake Joshua to help him get ready for his school day. Imagine my surprise when I walked into his room to find that he'd taken his bedroom door apart. And, that's not all! He had removed every single handle to his dressers and desk. He'd also taken apart his fan. Operation Find the Hidden Screwdriver commenced. For the entire day, our whole family scoured our house to find the screwdriver he'd used to take apart, well, EVERYTHING! Luckily, Faith is the best finder of all things lost. She found a little tiny screw driver hidden under his bed. Crisis averted? I thought so, until the very next morning I went in to wake him and found that he'd taken the plates off of the light switches and had taken apart his DVD player...with his FINGERNAILS!!! A few things crossed my mind. #1. WHEN is he doing this? My room is next to his. I keep a close ear out for him and I check on him multiple times before I go to sleep. #2. WHAT is this doing to help him? How is it helping him to take everything apart? #3. This is SO dangerous! How can I help him safely take things apart so that he can cope without having the house implode or burn down? #4. When you go to Lamaze classes, they don't tell you to prepare for this! I NEED A PARENTING MANUAL!!!
Anyway, let me continue by saying that the staff at his school has been fantastic. They have done everything possible to help him cope, but because of the sensory stuff, he eats by himself in the office everyday. He simply cannot tolerate the cafeteria. He goes into the school early to avoid the crowds and noise outside. He leaves his classes early to avoid the noise and crowds in the hall. He was taken out of his art class because it was too overstimulating and put in the Deaf and Hard of Hearing program. BTW...he isn't deaf or hard of hearing. However, this was the best solution to the over-stimulation problem, and again, I am really grateful that his school staff has been so accommodating. The issue is, though, that he still can't really make friends in that group because those kids don't hear and Joshua doesn't speak sign language. Basically, because of his issues, he is lonely all day everyday.
I literally could go on and on. I could write an entire novel, but I won't. The bottom line is that this isn't working! I consider it an actual miracle every single day Joshua makes it on the bus. This morning, I really didn't think that was going to happen! Holy crazy morning, Batman! First, I laid out Joshua's outfit, like every other day. I turned around to start making his lunch, then turned back around to find that the pants I'd laid out were missing and there were shorts in their place. I replaced the pants, put away the shorts and went about our routine. I went to grab a jacket, and what do ya know, the pants are gone and the shorts had returned. The bus was going to be here any minute, so I asked Joshua what had happened to his pants. He told me he COULD NOT wear those pants because they are TOO LOUD! Of course, this kid has grown so many inches since last year that he has no pants that fit. We grabbed a few pairs of these terrible, horrible, loud pants, but that's what was all that was available this morning. He begged to wear his PJ pants. He begged to wear shorts. LORD...GIVE ME STRENGTH! (BTW...if any of you happen to know of anywhere that sells men's size medium activewear pants that have an elastic waistband, aren't shiny, itchy, loud, strangley, and don't have tight ankles, you might just be my new best friend.)