A Major Kink in the Works

This week has been a tough one. I apologize for not posting. On Sunday at midnight, my family was faced with an incredibly difficult situation, as were 800,000 other families. Our government has chosen to put up a "closed for business" sign, and with it, the majority of our income is now closed for business as well. It is incredible how much life can change in a matter of hours!

So many people that I care about are either furloughed until further notice or are being expected to work without pay. Of course they are also being expected to pay their bills, feed their families, and keep a roof over their heads too. Maybe the grocery store will accept Monopoly money? I think we may have some of that laying around.

It is a scary thing to know that your income won't be coming in "until further notice." For my family that means spending every cent of our savings simply to pay the bills. It means cutting back on everything. It also means that we went from being a 2 car family to a 1 car family. It means that starting a Fragile X product website, which has become near and dear to my heart will not happen "until further notice." Basically, life as we have known it has already changed drastically and it has only been 5 days since the government shut its doors.

I am nervous about how all of this will work out. I am sincerely concerned for the families who did not have as much as my family did before all of this mess. But mostly, I am disappointed in my government. I am disappointed that the decisions of a few could drastically affect the lives of so many. I am disappointed that those few people are still receiving their (very large) salaries, while so many are staying up at night wondering how they will feed their children and keep a roof over their heads. How, in the land of the free and the home of the brave, could something like this happen?

I could go on and on talking about the stresses, fears and anger I am feeling. However, I am choosing instead, to trust in the One who made me...the One who called me by name. God knows our pain, our fear, our struggles and He knows our needs. So tonight, I am choosing to trust in Him because He is bigger than any government shutdown ever could be. Tonight I am choosing FAITH over fear!